Reality Check

Okay, I'm nowhere near my target savings and currently operating at a loss. WHY?
Because the sweldo day is yet to come.
I keep going on overtime because I always want to feel less harassed the next day. I don't like it when my boss is the one to point out my mistakes. I'd rather see it myself first and tell him so at least, he'd know I'm aware and that I'm willing to do something about it.
I wish I could have a little something on weekends to reward myself after all the hard work and back then, it was shopping. Then the boy came so it was weekends with him. But now, I would very much want to go back to shopping but my budget no longer covers it so it really really sucks.
I wish I could have better suits so I won't look like my boss's yaya during client meetings.

I also wish I could go to the salon so I could have my hair colored and have my nails and toenails cleaned. I want to get a massage too. I want to pig out on all my favorite food! Pizza, pasta, burger, and all the food that make you die sooner.

My wants and my current income just don't match. Regardless of whether I work harder in the office or not, my salary will still be the same so I guess that just leaves me to take up sidelines to make sure I have at least 50k by the end of this year.

Dear God, please help me make this happen. I want to have my diploma and work to make bigger bucks and learn how to run a business and eventually own the whole Luzon. or something like that.