it's my party and i'll cry if i want to

It's my birthday on the 22nd. I want to go out of town with Ryan but it seems pretty impossible considering that my parents would never allow me. Even if I try asking for their permission. I hate having to lie just to be able to go out with him. It's just soooo high school. I wish they'd just accept the fact that I'm a grown-ass woman and that I can be held responsible for my own actions.

Or maybe I could just drink till I puke my liver out. :)

Song of the Day.

Lyrics to The Bolder Thing To Do :

Every day trying to make up for the one before
climb three flights to tremble at the sight of your already open door
the frustration I see when I tell you I like some company
breaks my heart
how can you be so impartial?

(chorus)
and I've made myself the fool
who's fallen for you
so let me down softly this time and
I wont have to come back cryin'
I've just made myself look bad and
you're the one who should be feelin' bad
it'd be better to forget you
but I don't really want to
it'd be better to forget you
but I don't really want to

energy spent trying to believe you're not worth it
you don't deserve it
but I wish you did 'cause I can't live without this
and I'll remember you as the second or two
artists I knew who decided to screw me over
'cause it's the bolder thing to do

chorus X2

asan na ang pagiging writer mo, aber?

tanong ng friend ko, asan na ang pagiging writer-writer mo?

napaisip ako.

wala. I focused too much on passing my stupid Accounting subjects that are absolutely not applicable in my life since I don't really count liabilities as part of my assets and my writing style was completely ruined by reading my law books with their dumb run-on sentences that go on forever but only mean one thing but I keep reading in fear that I will miss something. hay.

ayun.

and well, it's too difficult to stay inspired.

pero ganun talaga. hindi ko nga alam kung pano natatagalan ng senior copywriter namin na 5 years na siya pero hindi natutuyo brain cells niya.

bongga! dahil jan magtatayo ako ng monumentong gawa sa alikabok sa table kong hindi ko nililinis. ever.

2 Bottles

Okay. Keith was right. Going home early isn't a good way to keep myself sane. His solution: 2 bottles before going home. (2 bottles = 1 bucket + nachos or crispy prawns)

Advantages:

- I get to meet new people and actually hear their thoughts on matters that need not be heard by the gods and their underlings (office politics/scam ads/stupid strategies etc etc.)

- Getting drunk = happiness.

- I begin to think long term.

- I found out that I'm not the only being in the world who's having troubles about time management with the boyfriend. (Okay, I know I'm not the only one facing this but it makes me feel better to know that it's not just me and I am not being OA with this.)

- It makes me feel nice when I wake up the next day knowing that I enjoyed the night before even if I barely slept.

Disadvantages

- I'm always broke. (I pitched in 20 bucks once. That was pretty embarrassing.. to think I finished the whole plate.)

- Hangovers. ugh

- No time to fish for more possible job opportunities.

5 vs 3

I guess I'll keep doing this for the next uhh... few months. omg. the god returned. better send status report before he throws me outta here.

Just a thought: NGAYON KO LANG NAGETS YUNG AD NG SAN MIG LIGHT 5-THIRSTY. ampupu.

i hate my office computer. grrr

I hate being 22 and being awfully neurotic.

I don't know how my friend does everything so smoothly despite all the pressure, the politics and pms.

It's not that easy to keep your cool when not everyone is willing to cooperate (by everyone, I mean my office computer and internet)

Don't blame me if I keep complaining about these things because in the first place, I shouldn't be worrying about them.

Stupid weekend.

What a boring weekend.

As usual the boyfriend is working on a weekend. So what's the point of having a sweldo day weekend when I don't have anyone to spend it with?

bad vibes.

Tomorrow, I'm going back to the office with absolutely nothing to shun the bad vibes away.

Good luck sakin. :(

Contrary to the speech.

We were forced to make a speech again and I got the topic Love is a many splendored thing.
Contrary to the negation of the statement, we are doing just fine. :)
I just don't feel like talking about love because love is love and I'm the last person to be asked about love.
Why not talk about the current state of the advertising industry in the Philippines.
Why not something related to everyday office politics?
Why not something about food?! hahaha
okay.

So my next topic should be about why Noynoy must be the next president.
Good enough. But not good enough for me to research on my meager free time.
Can we talk about something found on perezhilton?